I had so many things on my mind to write about, yet as I sit here
watching the lights on our Christmas tree they all seem to elude me. My
mind is tired of running and I find myself fighting sleep as I try to
force myself to write. You must, after all, do just that if you want
your talent to improve and writing nightly is a habit I am determined to
pick up. The music is playing the soft soothing melodies of Soundscapes
as I watch the icicles glisten against the lights. There is a simple
quiet beauty to it that I can not explain. My life is by far not
perfect but I know it is a work in progress guided by God's hands so
everything will be alright. My bank account is not overflowing but all
of my needs have been met. I have moments where I break down and cry
and find myself questioning why to so many things, isn't that a part of
being human? You never really know what someones smile might be
hiding. Storms sweep through everyone's life, some are just better at
hiding it than others. I know what it is like to be in a room full of
people yet you feel as if your the only one. I've said I'm okay when
inside I am dying. I've put on a positive face when I really want to
smash something or someone. These are things we all go through. We are
not pretending to be perfect or putting on a front for the world to
see, we just cope in different ways. So many times I have smiled
through the tears and came out stronger. Not sure where this came from
tonight, just sharing what's on my heart. It's important to know your
not alone, I'm not alone. We are all just trying to get through this
thing called life.
~ Chelle
12/20/13
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