Ramblings

I had so many things on my mind to write about, yet as I sit here watching the lights on our Christmas tree they all seem to elude me.  My mind is tired of running and I find myself fighting sleep as I try to force myself to write.  You must, after all, do just that if you want your talent to improve and writing nightly is a habit I am determined to pick up. The music is playing the soft soothing melodies of Soundscapes as I watch the icicles glisten against the lights.  There is a simple quiet beauty to it that I can not explain.  My life is by far not perfect but I know it is a work in progress guided by God's hands so everything will be alright.  My bank account is not overflowing but all of my needs have been met.  I have moments where I break down and cry and find myself questioning why to so many things, isn't that a part of being human?  You never really know what someones smile might be hiding.  Storms sweep through everyone's life, some are just better at hiding it than others. I know what it is like to be in a room full of people yet you feel as if your the only one.  I've said I'm okay when inside I am dying.  I've put on a positive face when I really want to smash something or someone.  These are things we all go through.  We are not pretending to be perfect or putting on a front for the world to see, we just cope in different ways.  So many times I have smiled through the tears and came out stronger.  Not sure where this came from tonight, just sharing what's on my heart. It's important to know your not alone, I'm not alone.  We are all just trying to get through this thing called life.

~ Chelle
    12/20/13