Karma

Karma. What goes around comes back around, right? Indeed. It does. I used to think this was a good thing. I can't remember how many times I've said, "she will regret that when it comes back and bites her in the butt" or "he'll get what he deserved." If we are honest with ourselves, I bet we've all said it a lot in life. 

I saw karma face to face today, in full force. She was raging, bitter, and just mean. I wasn't on the receiving end but felt the pain just the same. The horrible thing this person had done to me, all I  had been put through, bounced back like a rubber band snapping against the person flipping it. My anger turned into a deep sadness with the understanding of the depth of their pain.  I no longer wanted them to hurt as I had been. In fact, my soft heart just wanted to take away their pain. I no longer wanted karma to exact her revenge on my behalf, my heart longed to make it all better.

I still had the feeling of brokenness. It didn't change the feeling of being betrayed. The seeds of mistrust had still been planted. Ahhhhh, but healing had started to take root with the seeds of forgiveness. I began to think of Christ's forgiveness in my life. Where would I be with out it. While wishing karma on someone can easily be understood to someone on the outside looking in, I think I need to choose a different route. Perhaps a prayer for my Heavenly Father to touch their heart and protect them from the karma they created.... and a prayer for myself to forgive the offenses against me with the same love and heart of Jesus. These were my thoughts tonight. 

~ Chelle, #f8ithgal