PMDD Blues

     PMDD ( PreMenstrual Dysphoric Disorder) is like a dark cloud hanging over my head.  People don't like to talk about, many think it doesn't even exist but it is a very real condition to those ladies who that have it.  About 75% of women experience PMS, while only about 3-8% suffer from PMDD.  PMS is bad enough, but PMDD takes the physiological and physical symptoms to an extreme level.

    The dark cloud rolls in with thoughts distorting my self image as the water weight gain makes me feel like a large brooding storm cloud in an enormous sky.  The irritability crashes like thunder as I rumble negative thoughts through my head that spill over from my mouth.  Lightening bolts of sadness flash without warning as tears begin to fall like a summer rain.  The winds of indecision start to swirl as I lose focus and concentration.  The rain pours for days completely overwhelming me as storms would a river bank.  The rushing water exhaust me physically and start to drown me emotionally.  Finally, about a week in the rain begins to subside and a glimmer of sunshine starts to break through the clouds.  My outlook begins to change like a beautiful rainbow in the sky, a promise that everything is going to be okay.  And it is, until my next cycle hits...   and like Florida's rainy season, PMDD comes flooding back in.