Just a Thought 1.13.14

Vast Sea of Depression

I was coming out of a very bad depression when I wrote "Rescued From the Sea of Depression" and I have to admit that same sea has threatened to take me under several times since.  A friend's post yesterday reminded of where I was in my life when I wrote this.  It caused me to reflect back over the years since.  The enemy definitely knows our weaknesses and he certainly knows how to suck me back into those horrific murky waters.  Then I am reminded what the enemy means to pull me under the Lord uses for His good after He has lifted me out.  He turns those drowning spells of depression into a beautiful sea of testimony that can encourage and lift others out of their own murky waters.  I have survived that sea of depression, but it's currents are constantly trying to pull me back in. Ahhhhh, but I have a life line like no other and He always cast it before I drown.  You are not alone in that sea, send me a message if this is something you struggle with and allow God to use me as a buoy to keep you afloat as He pulls you into His beautiful ocean.

~ Chelle
    1/12/14

Rescued From the Sea of Depression

I've been drifting in the sea of depression for several weeks now.... no, to be more accurate I have almost drowned in that dreadful sea.  I could feel the waves shifting all around me trying to pull me under.  I could hear it's roar drowning out all reason.  As the waters engulfed me, I found it almost impossible to scream out.  Deeper and deeper I continued to sink.  I felt as if I was drowning.  I had been isolated from the land of the living and cast into the sea of the lost.

My life lines all seemed to have been cut.  I didn't want to leave the house.  I had to force myself to work... I had to force myself to church (when I did go)... I had to force myself to get my daily post out on the computer and do what little responding I could.  The weight of my depression was pulling me to the bottom depths of it's sea.  It closed in around me like a darkness, I didn't want to be seen by anyone.  As it's tides grew and twisted, it drowned out the pleas to my Heavenly Father.  It's murky water seemed to fill my mouth and halt any conversation.

I knew my Father never leaves or forsakes His Children, yet I thought my depression had me so low that I would never be able to surface again.  It's seaweed had me bound to the bottom.  I thought it would hold me there until my last bit of air ran out and then spit my shattered body and spirit to the top.... but I have a Heavenly Father.  Let me say that again... I have a Heavenly Father and despite what I thought, my Father said it's not so MY child.  I told you before and I'm telling you again, you have work for ME yet to do.

At first, the seaweed tightened it's grip.  You know the enemy doesn't like for the Lord to win.  It was twisted so tight that I didn't really even want to fight.  But my Father.... my awesome loving, understanding Father kept chiming not so my child you have work yet to do.  I felt Him pulling me to the ocean... where there were so many people and I didn't want to be seen.  I finally gave in and went.  On the first trip, I saw His awesome beauty everywhere.  And my Father, always knowing what I need, seemed to clear most of the people away before my arrival.  I waded in and watched the water wash over my feet.  The seaweed began to loosen it's grip.  As the waves washed over my feet and then the water pulled back into the ocean, I was reminded of how Jesus takes our sins and washes them away.

Now , like I said, the seaweed was loosened meaning satan was losing power.  The waves of life began coming at me from all directions and I felt as I couldn't even catch my breath. I just knew they were going to suck me under... but I have a Mother, a Pastor, a a few dear friends that were there in the back ground praying me through.  I began to reach out for that life line that had been cast, but it seemed to drag just beyond my grasp.  Just as I was feeling completely overwhelmed and the tears were falling faster than a hard Summer rain my Father said it will be okay daughter, I'm drawing You closer to me and this will make your faith grow stronger in Me.

That awesome peace, that only comes from God, began to wash over me... and through me.  Day by day, the water began to clear from my mind.  I realized the seaweed didn't have me bound, all I had to do was let go of it and let God work.  It was time from me to emerge from the murky sea of depression and swim in God's beautiful ocean.  I am a child of God.  I bind satan and all of his power He has no authority over me and I take back my life that God himself has blessed me with and I will follow the path He has set for my life and do His work!

I went back to the ocean today.  I got into the water this time and the Lord showed me a couple of things.  As I went out the waves continued to come up higher and higher.  When my feet were firmly planted the waves shook me a little, but couldn't move me.  If I stay firmly planted in God's Word, In His House, in prayer the enemy can shake me, but he can never defeat me.  The second I let someone catch me off guard I lost my footing and fell, at that same time waves began to hit me and I had a hard time getting back up... but I did and I regained my footing... First, the Lord showed me I need to watch and pray and He will help me weather those high waves that life often throws our way.  Second, if I do lose my footing I won't drown... the Lord is my life line and no one or any thing can ever hold me under.

  

Are you drowning in the sea of depression? Are the waters of life pulling you under?  Look up to the hills that cometh your help...  the Lord lifted me above the waters and He can do the same for you. 

~ Chelle

7/1/06

Favor

I had to laugh at myself yesterday morning.  The day before I had stepped out on a limb and was certain it would break and I would come tumbling down.  I worried all day after taking this step.  Constantly I was fighting every negative thought with a good one, yet worry was causing that branch to bend and twist beneath me.  The positive thoughts finally strengthened this limb I was balanced on and I let it go until morning. The first thing I did when I woke was check my account and God had worked it all out in my favor.  Silly girl. 

Favor.  I have God's favor over my life.  I don't have to be in control of every single detail. Now I am a control freak so sometimes I forget that and God has to remind me, okay a lot of times.  He did just that in this situation.  Today, while I was working, I noticed a tiny post-it I had taped to my desk.  On it, I had scribbled the words that had been spoken over me, "blessed and highly favored."  That's it.  I AM BLESSED AND HIGHLY FAVORED!  All I have to do is claim it and walk in it.  I found myself laughing again, if only I had remembered this two days ago when worry was taking over.  Yes, I needed that reminder from God and I have no doubt I will need more.  But I am thankful for a patient Father, willing to guide me in the right direction when I begin to stray or need a reminder of who is in control.  Listen for that whisper, that guidance you know can only come from above and you too can be blessed and highly favored.

~ Chelle
    1/9/14

"Made to Crave"

One of my friends just told me about a great online 6 week Bible study that is beginning on January 19 from Proverbs 31 Ministries.  It is called Made to Crave.  It is taken from the book by Lysa Terkeurst and centers around replacing food cravings with a craving for God.  The study is free, all you need is the book.  I purchased the eBook for just $2.99 (a lot less than a hard copy).  It can also be found in many libraries.  I am really excited about it (thank you Chasity) and wanted to share the information and link with each of you.  Feel free to join me and Chasity in this awesome study.  http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/

~ Chelle
    1/5/14

The Beautiful You

I keep seeing a quote said in various ways and with various pictures making it's way around Facebook. It is meant to be encouraging and I have even re-posted it myself in the past. However, the more I think about lately the more it vexes my spirit. It goes something like, "I may not be pretty.... but I have a good heart." or "I may not be the prettiest... but I have good heart." The devil is a liar. That inner beauty can shine so magnificently that it is reflected outwardly. We all have a beauty about us, because each of us was crafted by the hand of God in His image. I have met pretty people and the more I get to know them the more that beauty begins to fade. Their ugly disposition takes on the outside of the vessel they have been blessed with, marring it. What do you see when you look in the mirror? If you do not see beauty, look harder. Ask God to reveal that beauty to you because it's there, He just needs to open your eyes to it. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Just a thought.

~ Chelle Prell, "F8ithgal"
    1/4/14

The Power of Thought

I completely understand the phrase making a mountain out of a molehill.  Really, we can turn virtually anything into a huge issue by kicking it around in our mind for too long.  All it it takes is one seemingly little negative thought.  If left unchecked that "little" thought will blossom into a huge bouquet of ill thoughts in record time.  I have been struggling with this the last couple of days.  I recognize it, that is a positive step in the right direction.  Now I have to actively force my thinking into the different direction.  This isn't easy, it involves the continuing process of squashing those negative thoughts with positive ones.   It is too easy for the negative to take control and once that happens it is very difficult to turn around your thinking.  Those negative thoughts will start to eat at you and multiply, before you know it they consume the positive ones.  As each negative thought pops into my head, I am going to say and write down a positive thought to defeat it.  I am going to keep this written in a journal as a reminder that the negativity can be subdued when attacked by positivity. I do not expect this to be an easy process, but then nothing worth conquering ever is!

~ Chelle
    1/2/14